Jan 26, 2009 - 11:07 pm
I don't know why I'm submitting this....Maybe it's for answers, or maybe it's just to know that someone out there cares. The first time my emotions were tarnished by the word cancer, was 10 years ago when my grandmother Dorothy died of cancer in her uterus. She was a beautiful person and until her last day, she wasn't afraid of the disease...we were. I mourned her death for years and find myself still in tears remembering the radiation treatments and endless amounts of doctor visits. I agonized over the idea that my family had lost such a wonderful person to cancer. WHY!! As the years pressed on, I felt like I was going to a funeral every 2-3 months of family members lost to cancer. Uncles, Aunties, cousins, friends..... cancer in their brain, ovaries, breast, etc... It's an emotional rollercoaster ride that I wish I could get off of... In March of 2007, while celebrating my son's first birthday... my family decided to make it a big event with 400 people expected to attend!! To teach our son the gift of love and in rememberance of my grandmother, my husband and I made a donation to our local cancer research foundation and donated 15% of all monetary gifts at the party, to the foundation. It was a huge success, with our story in the newspaper and everything... Sadly, not even a week before the party we were at an Uncle's funeral who had died from Cancer. Today I just had my Aunt crying on my shoulder as we discussed finding out her niece is suffering from cancer in her ovaries. It seems like it never ends!! So many beautiful people....GONE!! I feel like running in the middle of the road yelling at the top of my lungs in total frustration. I know I should be appreciative of the fact that I'm of good health and God has blessed me greatly...but I can't help but mourn over all those who are either suffering or had died from cancer. To anyone who reads this...thanks for listening...