Jan 06, 2009 - 10:54 am
Got caught again. Dang, when will I stop setting myself up for this stuff? No, really, I need an answer - WHEN? I am not panicking yet but yesterday was one of those supposedly routine visits to the Dr. and when I left it was like 'deer in headlights' for me. Now granted the Dr. seemed to be one fry short of a Happy Meal in how he dealt with patients, but even at that what he said left cause for concern, or at the very least the threat of concern. I finally got in to see the Urologist after that first time kidney stone incident a couple of months back. It had been postponed due to heart hastles I was having, the first time it was booked, so even with the flu hovering over my beaten up bod I dragged myself there. I got in pretty quickly and the Doc seemed nice enough, pulled up the CT of my visit to the emergency room the night of the attack and there it was, this dark spot near the bladder - the nasty kidney stone. He asked me if I was having any other physical hastles relating to it and when I mentioned one he had me go for an xray to compare with the ct, which I thought was weird since they are two different machines, but he just wanted a rough idea I guess. So I come back with the xray and he looks at it, with me, and the dark stone is gone from where it was in the ER but now there is a light colored new object in my bladder to which he says 'there it is, it's in the bladder now - if that IS IT'?. WHAT??????? What the yahell is it then if it isn't the stone? For the love of gawd, now what? - you start to think? Is this one of those cases where they go in to look for one thing and come up with something far ickier? NUTS. So I asked him if the reason it looks different is the density of the tissue of the bladder over where it was before (pretty smart eh? lol) and he mumbles 'uh huh' but it was an 'uh huh' like he was thinking that it was something else - you know that kind of 'uh huh'? Sigh. So I left there with an appt to come back in 2 weeks to have another xray done to compare where the little booger was then, and if it was still there they would 'blow it up'. Hmmm. Hey listen, just blow me up and get this over with, sheeesh. Apparently he was ready to do that anywho, he told me, before he saw the xray or knew of my history if it appeared to be still there at all.
I asked him if it was wise to use that technique since I had a pacemaker I didn't want to see go out of commission with the 'blowing up' and all and also I was on blood thinners to which he said 'ya that might be a problem' Sigh. So glad I, I REPEAT 'I' thought of that, sigh, sigh, sigh.
So, now here we go again 2 weeks to wait and wonder what the heck that thing is in the bladder, whats next if it is something other than a stone, yada yada? I know , I know, don't freak out - wait til I have all the info, it's probably just the stone - uh huh. Where's my lorazepam? lol. I am sooooooooo going to make a necklace out of that stone if I pass it and that is all it was. Okay that was a gross idea, scratch that. lol.