Nov 23, 2008 - 8:53 pm
Well, it has been around 10 months since my dad (age 62) was diagnosed with cancer of the throat. He also has COPD. He is still smoking :(. At first the doctors were cautiously optimistic, but after the radiation is finished it appears the cancer is still there. He is now being referred to a new hospital and doctors since he lives in a rural area and the doctors feel they cannot help him any more. The problem now is that he has to travel an hour an a half just to make it to the clinic. He feels so awful that he has missed all of his appointments for this past month. He has a roommate now which I think is good, but I know his health is not that great either. Hopefully, his roommate can drive Dad to his next appointment. I live 8 hours away in another state and it is difficult not to be there to help. My husband and I tried to move to the same area to be near Dad, but the jobs are just not there for us to make a living (even more so with the state of the economy now!). My brother and sister in law live in the same town as Dad, but my brother is on the road constantly with his job. My sister in law has her hands full with a new baby. I also have an aunt and uncle that try to help and my 93 year old grandmother and 90 year old great aunt are there to chat on the phone with Dad. I guess today is just hard because I am feeling emotional (probably due to the holidays coming up). We will see Dad Christmas which I am so looking forward to! I just need some friends who understand how scary it is to feel out of control. I also am sad about how hard it is to communicate long distant with someone who's pain is the area of the throat; therefore making it difficult and extremely painful to talk on the phone. One thing I will say is that Dad has a great attitude. He has the rare ability to not look back at the past and wonder "what if". For example: quitting smoking years ago. I wish I had that ability! He also has a great sense of humor. For his last birthday I got him a card that has a photo of a big bass mounted on the wall. Attached to the bass is a cat hanging on for dear life with his head turned looking into the camera. The caption read "Older yes. Wiser... not so much!
Thanks y'all for listening...