I'm desperate for contact with other caregivers. I feel like either screaming or crying I'm so confused.
My husband was diagnosed with lung cancer in September and started chemo Oct. 6. He had a bad reaction to the chemo and was hospitalized. Nearly lost him twice that week.
My "alert" button has been on since all this started. He's doing much better with a different chemo treatment, but I'm falling apart now. I'm angry that he's not the way he used to be because (and I understand) he's so preoccupied with his cancer and getting well. Then i feel so guilty because that's the last thing I want to do is be angry with him. It feels like my feelings about this whole thing are just now catching up with me and I feel overwhelmed.
I've been feeling extra sad. Yesterday was my grandmother's birthday. She died in 2004 of kiedney cancer. I was so close to her and was her main caregiver. I miss her and I'm scared of losing my husband. I've got friends and family who want to help, but I don't know what they can do.
I feel so lonely and overwhelmed.