Oct 26, 2008 - 7:51 pm
I just need to vent my frustrations right now. I have been out of work since Oct.6th. I ws diagnosed with thyroid cancer after the removal of my right lobe due to a nodule that when biopsied was cancer. On the 21st I had the rest of my thyroid taken out. I still have no voice after the first surgery and I am getting very frustrated that I can not even talk normal. The 24th I went to my ent because I was tin gling from head to toe, I spent the next 32 hours between the E.R. and being admitted in the hospital with low calcium. Now I have to take 2000mg of calcium 4x's a day on top of all my other meds. Right now I am crying because I am so frustrated because this had happened to me. All I want is my life to go back to normal. I worked full time, had just graduated with my associates in education and was supposed to go back to school for my bachelors in Early Chilhood/childhood Education, I just met a guy 2 months before I was diagnosed with cancer. Everything was going in the right direction for me then my life falls apart. Why do things like this have to happen? I feel so out of control. I get tired of sitting around the house, I get tired of getting out of the house to do nothing but walk, I just feel so restless and do not know what to do. My doctor doesn't want me to go back to work until after I go through the radiation iodine therapy because he wants me to be well rested. Now with all these crazy emotions, crying one minute, mad the next, I am at my wits end. Even though family, friends, even my new boyfriend try to help it's hard because they do not understand what this is like. Has anyone else felt this way? I want my life back!!!!!!!!!! does this get any easier to handle?