Jul 25, 2008 - 12:25 pm
It's been four months since my final chemo treatment and I should be walking on air. Scans after I finished were clear so for all intents and purposes I am cancer free. So why am I so angry and sad? I am finding there are definite limits one can do with one lung as opposed to two, and I will have to retire because I really can't do what I used to, but I'm alive, get to see my kids and grandkids and shouldn't that be enough? I know I am blessed and I thank God every day, but if one more person tells me how lucky I am, I think I will scream. I know everyone means well but aren't I allowed to grieve for what I've lost? Why do I feel guilty if I feel a little sorry for myself? This is not a major thing and I'm sorry to be whining when so many others are facing so much worse. I guess I needed to vent and you guys are the lucky recipients. I think I feel better already. Thanks for listening.