Mar 12, 2008 - 9:36 pm
I am 20 years old and in university at the moment. I was diagnosed with papillary thyroid cancer in october after going through about 5 months of testing and waiting for results. I had a total thyroidectomy about 2 weeks after i was diagnosed and had the iodine treatment. Now all this happened very fast and i was never really able to come to terms with it.
I realize there are a lot of other cancers that are worse or dont have as good of a cure rate as mine, but i cant help but feel completely lost.
My problem now is that i still dont feel like my self! I used to be really bubbly and outgoing and lately ive been very edgy. My boyfriend was amazing through the surgery and recovery although now we've been having some tough times. Ive been very needy (which is not like me) and I've been very depressed. I know i expect o alot from him and surprised he's stayed with me for this long but i wish i could get back to the way we were before all this. When i'm with my friends and peers at school i brush off what happened as if it was just something that i went through but i still dont feel right. If that makes sense. Ive been trying to get back to "normal" but i really dont know what that is anymore. Im not really doing well in school and my hopes of getting into med school seem to be becoming more of a dream then any kind of reality.
I just feel like everything is completely falling apart around me and there doesnt seem to be any light at the end of this dark tunnel.
does it get better??? cause at the moment i really dont see what the point is anymore.