I lost my mom June 7th 2007 almost 8 months ago.
I go to bed thinking about her and not believing it happened. fun how even though she fought Brain cancer for 17 months nad I was there every step of the way I still feel like it did not happen. I hate this. We were SO close, I mean we lived next door to each other for 18 years after I got married, We worked together in more then one business, and we played together all the time. We all did as a family, Now, I feel like I'm losing everyone!!..My daughter is now 19 and growing up, she's been playing with the idea of moving to the Netherlands,My 42 year old sister is pulling away, I feel she's hurting also and feels better when she is not looking it/me in the face, we work together also!...
My 18 year old sister who was 17 when mom pasted away moved in with us,She just up and moved Saturday, I dont even know where she went..it was totally uncalled for! I dont know why she got her panties in a wad, but she did and took off..(some new guy in her life) still it hurt....and to top it off my dog is getting old and dying...the vet thought it would be a month ago but she's still here.
I really want this to stop!...I feel so out of control.