Well it has been over 10 years now since I finished being treated for my dreaded breast cancer. 10 years of quitting that smoking thing has really helped to restore this thing I call my LIFE. I can finally tell people, cause it feels to be finally my truth that I am feeling great. I look back and can't help but think that I hadn't felt well for as long as I can remember back. I have heard it said that if you feel the lump then it has been there for well over 10 years. Hate to think how long it had been there before my health began to fail me.
It is interesting how things in our lives straighten themselves out just in time to face other hard times in our lives. As my parent's ages increase and their health fail it is another reality check in this life of mine. Every time I go back and see my parents my reality becomes clearer and can only be grateful that I have the strength and courage to endure all I must in my life ahead. For the shoe does tend to drop at times...
With this passage into my new found life after much suffering I have learned many things and one is life is just what it is and learning to live in it is the best we can do.
I am back on the working out wagon since my energy is slipping where working eating and sleeping have become my life. Now once again it will take a whole pile more out of me to get me to the next level and continue to increase the productivity and quality in my life.
I have been so fortunate over the years to have this space to lay all I feel and sometimes it hasn't been the most positive but feeling sometimes is the all there is while we find our place. Working and struggling through sometimes leads us to better places and helps us along the way.
Being good to ourselves first is just being that best friend we can be to others, to self.