May 26, 2007 - 2:02 am
how can we grieve? what is right or wrong? does anything make sense at all? going through this process is very hard, very painful. I just lost my mom to cancer, it was through her whole body at 83 years old. why cancer? no dignity... she died May 20th, last Sunday in NY... I am now back in Florida trying to cope with life without our bi weekly phone calls. at least losing my dad 25 years ago to a heart attack was quick, he didnt suffer , although he was young at 60, it still was easier for him and us. I am sure I am not alone feeling this pain. I can only imagine what my mom must have felt and the fear she felt and expressed. she was lucid till the last two days. I AM glad for the time I got to spend with her in her last two weeks while she was alive and talking and laughing and loving.... we made peace and said goodbye, but it still hurts so much.