Mar 14, 2007 - 11:39 pm
It will be 11 months tomorrow since my husband of 32+years passed away. When I got to work today all I did was cry. I do nails and when a customer would come in and my mind would wonder all I could do was to get up and go have a cry. My heart hurts I want the bad memories to go away I don't want to shut my eyes and see him dieing over and over again. They say it gets easier with time but mine seams to get worse. The lonely ness the dicessions I have to make wondering am I making the right ones. I have customers (a Lot) that are widows most in their late 60s or 70's, loney widows. I see myself in them and I get so depressed. Our lives were just getting back to being good (lost daughter at the age of 15 in car wreck-91) He helped me through that, but noone can help me through this. This litterly makes me sick to my stomach.