Jan 19, 2007 - 11:29 pm
It all started 4 years ago march my moms fight for survival. I am on here now because I don't know how to deal. The past few months have been the worst. My mom crys to me all of the time telling me how much pain she is in and how she has no energy to do anything. She talks to my brother about how when she dies we will forget about her. I used to tell her she has to be strong and we will find a cure and she would be fine. Now I am not so sure. We have tried so many different treatments you lose hope after awhile. I live 3 hrs away from home, I'll tell you what everytime I go home I get worked up I hate it once I am there its ok depressing half of the time but good to be home. When I leave I put everything out of my mind I don't deal with what is actually going on. Out of sight out of mind they say. I guess I thought it would be good to talk to other people that have or are going through the same thing. I talk to my friends they listen and are there for me but at the same time they don't have a clue. Its so heart breaking to see your mother break over and over again. Sometimes I cry sometimes I drink and other times most times I just become numb! What do you do to deal. I am lost...