Dec 03, 2006 - 12:25 am
Hey everyone. Yet again its been awhile for me posting here. Been really busy. Unfortunatly it has not been because of the holidays. Im kind of the scroog right now. I have had way to much going on. over the past few months I have had 5 people in my life pass away. 2 because of cancer. Seems like a lot is piling up on me. I got passed up for a promotion at work. They gave it to someone they per company guidlines should not of even been able to apply. She has not been there even close to a year. and she has no prior experience in the industry or supervising employees. and my sister is having surgery on wed. to remove her gul bladder. My family has been on my back with the holidays and all. I mean I am all decorated and everything butwell its the usual family stuff. I am a 3 year 6 month survivor. I had nerve damage in my left leg due to a hospital mistake so it took me 2 years to work at getting my foot back to an almost 100% working order. its about 95-98% on a bad day. I am finally not as clumsy as I used to be though I know I need to work on my balance more. I was told I would only have 85% use of my foot but I laughed at the docotors for that. When doctors see my medical history they know odds mean I will prove the odds wrong. But at this point my life is somewhat more together. but my family is on my back again the whole- you need to work out and join a gym. Over the years since I couldnt really do full work outs for 2 years I gained the 30 pounds I lost before going into the hospital plus the akward 30 I lost in the 20 days I was in the hospital back plus now about 25 so I am about 80 lbs over weight. but I know I still look great. Seems they always get on my back this time of year. Then they do the corny "Im glad we are all healthy and here" and look at me and do the whole we almost lost you stuff. My doctors remind me I am still here because of me. I fought to be here. I am just sick of the corny stuff. I try to talk to my family about what this all was for me. What the cancer was all for me but they still over 3 years later wont talk about it. "its to hard they say" If its to hard then why can I talk about it I mean It was my life I almost lost?I just am sick of the corny sentimental stuff because so that they can avoid actually talking about it. I used to love the holidays just this year something doesnt seem right. I dont know if its the recent events in my life or what it could be.
I havent been in the chat recently because It doesnt seem right for me. I try to talk in there but no one wants to hear or give advice for anything i have to say. I hope everyone has a great holiday season.