I was diagnosed with Stage 2a Uterine cancer in February, 2006. I was only 39 at the time and I was only going to the doctor to find out why I havent been able to get pregnant. I was so shocked when I found out that: First, I had cancer and second, I was never going to have children. I wanted a baby so bad and I still do. I see a baby in a store and my heart just breaks all over again. People must think I am heartless when I try to turn away and keep from crying. I had always been told that I had plenty of time, then when I reached 36 a doctor told me I better hurry, I wasnt getting much younger. I had always has trouble with my periods, but I didnt think much was wrong. I had always been told that I just needed my hormone levels checked. When I first went to the doctor and mentioned that I was having problems with bleeding, she just shrugged it off and said that it was my endometrial tissue shedding some of the extra blood. This kept up for quite a while. I finally had enough and went to another doctor. From the second I walked into her office, she actually knew something was wrong. She listened and sent me to a gyno. What I didnt know, and she told me later is that her sister had Uterine cancer, and she suspected that this was what I had. Her sister was only 1 month away from her 5 year anniversary and she passed away, the cancer had returned.
I ended up having a total hysterectomy in March. I was told that the cancer hadnt spread but was advised to take radiation.
I am finally done with that, I ended in July. I am such a horrible emotional basket case. I cry at the drop of a hat, I am very depressed. My doctor isnt sure that he wants to put me on hormones since we have a family history of breast cancer. Everyone seems to have an opinion on that one. We are having quite a bit of financial difficulty since all of this started. I was fired from my job the day after learning of my diagnosis. I worked for this company for 5 years and never took more than a day or 2 off of work. It wasnt much of a job, but at least I had one. My husband was unemployed, so this made matters worse. We are close to eviction with no help in sight. On top of all my other problem, I really am a total mess.
I just need a place to talk to someone who has gone through what I have. My family has tried to be supportive, but they dont fully understand all of this. I really hope that this can help me deal with my emotions. I really need someone to talk to and I really appreciate your web site.