Cancer Survivors Network

Hi everyone. My name is Kristen and I'm a 23 y.o survivor of colon cancer. Pretty young to have gotten it, but the doctors believed it progressed from an inflammatory bowel disease I had had since I was 3. I underwent chemo during the last semester of my senior year of college ( i was determined to graduate on time...plus I was lucky to have only one class left to take). My friends and roommates and parents were so supportive. They helped me laught about it and I got through it...and then decided to switch careers to nursing. So that's what I'm doing now, nursing school, and I'll have my degree by the end of next July. I thought that once I finished chemo my life could go back to normal and I could almost forget about chemo and cancer and being sick. But lately I realize how untrue that is. I had a PET/CT scan done in March which showed "a variation of normal" in a lymph node. But when the scan was repeated a month ago there was no further change. I just can't believe that feeling of almost waiting for bad news. I so desperately want to move on but it's so hard when I need to go get another test every 3 months. And then there are so many other issues on living after cancer...like dating! I never would've thought that would be so hard. I don't know how to tell someone that I had cancer. I don't know when the right time is for that. I'm so scared that it will scare them away. And then I feel kinda guilty even getting into a serious relationship in case the cancer comes back. And I can't even hide it for too long because I have a few scars from surgeries. Does anyone have any advice? I'd really appreciate it. I'm having an emotional weekend and found the CSN site. THanks! and God Bless.