Jan 31, 2006 - 7:10 am
Good morning everyone, I am now doing so much better. Thank you for all the prayers and support. The river of tears stopped before Minnesota was flooded. :-)
I am feeling pretty dang good, after sleeping from Friday afternoon to Sunday, not sure how a person can sleep so much. I have to tell you that my stubbornness has kicked in; I have never just given up on anything without a bit of fight. Just ask my family.
Randy and I talked again on Sunday about what the Dr said, and we both agree I have to make sure the Dr knows, even though I do not want to be kept alive on machines, not to give up on me either. I don't mind another surgery if possible, or a colostomy or whatever I need to do to be here with my family and friends for a longer time.
The information and questions the Doc shared last Wednesday was just a lot to absorb, but now that the fight mode has kicked in I am feeling much better. We will not know until the end of the month if the gemzar is slowing the cancer down, and who knows it could shrink it, each person is different
My Doc is a good Dr but he doesn't have all the answers and just sees, how in spite of all we've tried, the disease just won't stop. But I am not a statistic I am a living breathing person and my longevity with this disease can be much different than someone elses.
Also, I am still sewing quilts for all my grandkids and not done yet. And once I finish these, I know God will have someone else for me to sew for. :-)
I started drinking Mangostene juice last week; a friend brought it for me to try. It is full of antioxidants, and even though it isnt the best tasting, I am drinking it faithfully everyday. It cannot hurt and maybe is what my body needs to make it through this next chemo. They have such a big heart and the love that came with the juice is what will actually help carry me on and probably be the antioxident needed for healing. As love for each other, compassion, caring, nurturing, that is what helps heal and gives one strength.
I also asked God if he was waiting so Drs could not take credit for my healing ...... I am ready now.
Well just wanted to let everyone know I am doing well and came out of the pit I fell into. Lucky for us God gave us tears to wash the stress and anxieties from our souls when needed. I love you all and so much appreciates all the support.
Corinthians 1:3-4 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.