Jan 05, 2006 - 1:42 pm
I had a real roller coaster ride of emotions and depression foloowing my bout with this disease. I never found a survivor to talk to and my truck was broken down while I was dealing with cancer, actually, for 8 months until I scraped up the money for a new engine.
I was 53 when I was first diagnosed with the disease and now I am 54. I survived the disease but the surgery caused additional emotional stress and anxiety. I eventually had another surgery to put Humpty Dumpty back together again.
Even though I never got the support I needed and still need I would still like to help anyone who just needs to talk. I realize it is a rough road for all of you out there and each will find his own way of dealing with it. I am not ashamed to talk about it and I am not embarrassed that I had the disease. I did not hide it from my co-workers or relatives or anyone. I have actually tried to explain how bad the disease is to many.
Before I came down with PC I was totally ignorant and now I feel like the poster child for the disease. All my brothers were alerted to the need to get a PSA test now and they have. The PSA test saved my life.
It was accidental how I found out. I got a bladder infection, which I never have had before and was having raging fevers. On the 5th day I broke down and went to the doc and he did a random PSA blood test and my numbers were slightly elevated. The Byopsy followed with conclusive evidence that yes I did have PC. I went straight into denial. I just could not accept it. Since I am single I had no one to bounce thoughts off and it just got worse emotionally from that point on. How I held on I 'll never know. of course, I was praying like crazy. Not so much because of the threat of death; I am not afraid of dying. I was praying to keep my sanity and emotions under control.
In any case should any of you ever need a survivor to talk to I am here.
Hang in there guys.