Dec 28, 2005 - 11:21 am
The day before Thanksgiving I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Hodgkins. It was found by a harmless lump on my neck, and after CT and PET scans we found that it had spread to my chest and abdomen.
At this point no organs have been infected, and I am scheduled to start ABVD treatment on Jan. 4 (6-8 Cycles). At this point the anticipation of starting chemo is overwhelming me and I cannot focus on anything but this. I am extremely scared, not to go through the treatment, but that the treatment will not cure me or that it will spread to other parts of my body. Everyone says that this is a normal part of the experience, but I am very down and not myself since I found out all of this news. I am 27 years old and was always healthy before this.
Since I have not started treatment yet, I feel as though every little ache and pain is associated with the Hodgkins, and most recently my throat has been sore for about a week. I consulted my primary care doctor and he did not treat me for the soreness, instead he treated me for depression, which was another topic I brought up to him while at my appt.
I am just rambling on at this point, but I am a scared newly diagnosed patient that is looking for the support of other people that have been through this and experienced what I am feeling now. Any help or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read.