Dec 06, 2005 - 1:04 pm
Hi out there~ I am a NHL survivor, remission for 6 months and I have no idea who I am now. Everything is different about me from the way I look to the way I look at life.
I feel like this cancer has stolen ME away and I want ME back.
The worst part about it is I do not know how to express these feelings properly so the people around me don't "get it", , , heck I don't "get it".
I have tried to go back to my life, went back to work, doing social things, but it is not the same.
Kind of like taking a drink of orange juice after brushing your teeth. It is the same juice but a whole different taste and not satisfying. I know how to make the orange juice taste the same again, but I don't know how to make my life feel the same.
Has anyone else felt this way? Were you able to go back to life as it was? How did you get there or how did you adjust to the new life?
Being a survivor is proving harder for me than the cancer treatments, absolutely no disrespect to those of you who are finding the cancer treatments difficult.