Oct 10, 2005 - 5:51 pm
The past week has been life altering. I discovered I had a tumor on my cervix on a friday. Had an appt w/the oncologist on Monday, and had surgery the following Friday. (A biopsy & Cystoscopy). Oncologist called today with results...not good. The cancer has spread to my lymphatics, which is what I didn't want to hear. I'm scared, angry, worried, confused, and a dozen other emotions are running through my head. I married in April, have 2 children from a previous marriage, and 3 step children. We wanted to have one together, but those dreams are shot now too. I have many friends and family that are so supportive. They bring dinners, flowers, cards, and frequent phone calls to check on me. But there's something missing. Why do I feel all alone? Do they really know what I feel inside? Do they really understand how I view my life now? I joined this forum to hopefully find someone who has a similar situation. Someone who can really understand what I am going through. Someone to lean on. Someone to listen. Someone to inspire me. I wait for that someone.