Oct 04, 2005 - 9:36 pm
July 15 of this year I was diagnosed with malignant melanoma, I am 24. I was lucky, I had the tumor excised and a lymphnode biopsied and my doctors tell me they got it all. I know this seems silly because I no longer have the cancer but I am still terrified. My mind seems to wander to the possibilities more and more. Just last week my dermatologist found 3 more moles she is concerned with and of course I am scared. A part of me feels incredibly guilty because I should feel relieved, I am one of the lucky ones, my cancer could be removed, I had no chemo. But instead of those feelings I am afraid all the time. Sometimes more than that I am angry because as I have found out, skin cancer increases risks for other cancers and sometimes I wonder if I survived this just to die of another type of cancer.I know I seem to be overreacting but I can't help how I feel. Is this normal? My boyfriend says I am overreacting, am I? Please someone respond even if it is to say I am. I just need to know what someone else thinks.