Aug 19, 2005 - 9:45 pm
The neighborhood I used to live in as a child had a ...i can't remember the name of it ...but it was a high concentration of people who had hodgkins. Enough for CDC to do an investigation.
I have been trying to figure out what is wrong with me and I just remembered this a few days ago. I would go through the things that are happening to me but you all will be tired of reading. I've told one doctor a little over a year ago and he sort of brushed me off after all of my blood tests were mostly normal. (He has since left town and is no longer my doctor.) I found a new doc near my home and went to him and told him about my chest hurting. He ran some test, took some xrays, and did an ekg (3-4 seconds last person of the day and the tech said "I got caught and I can't leave yet") - the test came back mostly normal. He suggested that sometimes general illness and chest pain may be a result of depression. I told him that I am a little depressed but is is because I have been sick and not known what is wrong for a few years. I told him I get sick then depressed not depressed then sick and that I would probably not take the antidepressants. He looked upset.
There are days that I can barely make it when I am feeling bad tired would be an understatement (12+ hours of sleep and still tired). I explained that I drop weight like crazy when I am sick and have to eat junk food to keep the pounds on (:o) if I at like that all of the time I would roll down the sidewalk) then after I feel better I can go back to eating my normal healthy food. He did not understand and thought I was binge eating ... I tried to explain that was not the case and he got upset for telling him that he misunderstood me ... I am getting a little side tracked here ...
I noticed that some people who were diagnosed felt sick and had doctors tell them they were fine. I don't want to seem like a hypo ...jeesh I can't spell that I think it is hypochondriac? but do I tell them I used to live in a neighborhood like that? I don't want make myself appear nuts but I feel awful sometimes and I can't get any answers and I am trying the passive route.
I feel like I just need to go to some teaching hospital somewhere and let them figure it out.
I am sorry for talking so much about nothing but I am trying to find some answers - because I am starting to feel bad again. My chest hurting is a scarey thing especially with everthing else that happens when I am sick.
thanks for any input/advice.