Jul 23, 2005 - 8:52 pm
Hello, I made up a name that is 'optimistic' as you can tell but I am believing I am right. About a month ago I went to a dermatologist because of this and that spot not looking normal. I had had this place on the back of my arm for quite awhile and just didn't know what it was but knew it didn't look good. But the sneaky thing was it was pink. No other color except it had a red ring around it and it wasn't asymetrical either. It was about the size of a pencil eraser maybe a little bigger, but anyways, the dermatologists said he thought it needed to be sent off and for me not to panic or anything but to be safe. So after ten days I get 'THE CALL' and it wasn't what I was expecting to hear. I heard 3 words ...melanoma...surgery and the date it was scheduled. At the time they called I was in the midst of a terrible migraine and with this news I literally felt like I was going to have a stroke. My daughter was here with me and she knew by my face that things weren't good even tho I tried to hide it. I couldn't. I have two teenagers and a twenty year old, and I have been married for twenty years to the same man that I married in high school. Ok with all that said and done let me try to get on with the rest of this. I had the excision done Wednesday the 20th of this past week and the depth of my melanoma was 0.80 mm (that was with the first biopsy he took) So he went in and done the major re arranging my skin as I call it. I honestly don't care what kind of scar I end up with as long as it's all gone. I felt so relieved after the excision like I left the cancer there in that bottle and of course I know I will have to go back for check ups and such. I just wanted to kind of share my story with you all and say that I am praying for each of you and I know the fear and the panic you felt. Especially since I have an anxiety/panic disorder anyway (that's under control now) but I never thought I would hear those words...or word...Cancer. Now I am waiting to hear....It's All GOne! If you have a story to share please do...here is my email if you would rather email me....firstname.lastname@example.org. It has helped me reading about others who have had this and how they over came it. I honestly believe I am healed of this now but I will always be cautious of every little spot from here on out! As you all know! Thank you and Love and Prayers going your way!