Jul 13, 2005 - 12:26 pm
went to the onc on monday sd he is very concerned. he is going to try to give me a different combo of chemo. right now i am not feeling well and my left side hurts in the lung area. at this point for the first time in the 8 yrs of have been dealing with this i am just numb. i told my children that mommys body was very sick again and that i was going to have to take the medicine that makes mommy sick. my daughter sd mommy are you going to be with us much longer and i sd as calmly as i could that God is the one who decides how long someone will live so i dont know. i will start treatment on friday. i think i am a little depressed. there has got to be a better way to eat up this cancer than chemo. i am also doing a lot of coughing and it is hard to breath just to walk across the room because of the cancer in the left lung. anyway thanx for listening and blotting my tears with cyber kleenex.
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