Jul 11, 2005 - 11:30 am
Hi all, I've been reading the posts and thank everyone for your concern. I too am worried about Judy.
Scott is not doing well. He is vomiting about every 2 hours. His weight is down to 118lbs. I can't handle watching him lose his battle. Last night I just started crying and couldn't stop. I can't believe this is all happening. He is so sick and there's not a damn thing I could do about it.....THIS SUCKS!!!
His parents came down yesterday...still in denial. They want me to hire a private nurse to stay here. Scott does not want this, but they keep pressuring him and it's really pissing me off. They're pressuring him to do chemo, which is making him feel even worse, because they think he will "bounce back" from this. I understand how they feel, but they're not here watching him vomit and he's so depressed. I just don't know what to do anymore.
We are going to the doctors today. His appt was for Wed. but he's lost 10lbs in less than a week. I think it may be time for hospice but I don't know how to bring it up to him. I still haven't talked to the kids. I told them his morning that daddy isn't doing well and he may have to go back to the hospital. I need to sit with them tonight and explain to them that daddy will not be with us much longer.
My neighbor died last week. She had a stroke last year and hasn't been right since. Then they discovered lung cancer last month and she went downhill fast. I sat my kids down and told them Miss Mary died and it was an open door for me to explain about death. They understand that they will not see Miss Mary again, she is with God now. I'm not happy that she died, but I am glad I was able to expose my kids to death and hope they understand.
I'm going to take Scott to the docs now. I will try to keep everyone posted. You are all always in my thoughts and prayers.