Jun 28, 2005 - 8:22 pm
A year ago I was diagnosed with AML. At the age of 20 I was in remission and a year later it re-occured. Now at the age of 21 I am up for a autologous transplant due to the fact that I am unable to find a donor match. In a few weeks they plan to begin the withdrawal of my stem cells and in a month begin the transplant. I go for a bone marrow biopsy in a week to make sure I am lying in remission safe enough for the transplant. I am a tad scared, but most of all I am lost. I had to withdraw from school and was riding with a 4.0 GPA. I will go back, but due to every mishap taking place I do not know if I should continue to persue what I long for. I had to quit work and I am not one to remain in the house. I have been home for 2 months now and have about a year ahead of me. I feel terribly alone. I do not have many friends, one or two; but they have their own lives. I know in this world so much mishap has taken place and I should be lucky to be alive, but I have been completely torn away from reality with less glimmers of hope appearing. Please if you could just drop a sentence or two, I would love it. Maybe a little of someone else's experience would heal the heart.