I need to vent so where do I always go... Here. Hubby has been going thru chemo since Oct 21, 2003 and here we keep right on. I am frustrated and he is devistated. He is on the 5FU cocktail (what ever you call it) with avastin and oxli... and the cancer only dropped from 3.3 to a 3.1cm in the liver and we now find that there are 5 nodules rather than the first thought 2. The tech thinks since we changed CAT machines that there may have always been five but no one knows for sure.
ANYWAY back at it again. He finishes the last 6 treatments today and in two weeks starts his next 6! YIKES. I feel SOOOO hopless and helpless. Why can't I do something. I pray and pray and cry and cry and it doesn't help. I know, I know. I am being positive to him but this is the place where I came come and smoke my keyboard and really cut loose.
You people are a God send to me. I have thru this found church and another family but you are still my first family. I can type and type and no one stops me! lol...
My pastor and I talked on day and he told me to see Jesus in my mind and to crawl up on his lap and let him wrap his arms around me and to sit there and cry on his shoulder until I feel better. It WORKS! sometimes I think his legs have to go to sleep cuz I stay there for so long, but he never complains.
THANK YOU. I had to get this out or burst.
I Love you all.