Apr 02, 2005 - 11:38 am
Hi, I am 35 years old, had bilateral mastectomy with latissimus dorsi flap an expanders done 3/14/05. I had hodgkin's disease when I was 19 years old, the effects of the radiation are believed to have caused the breast cancer. I thought I had my turn with cancer, but I was determined that I would get through this just like the hodgkin's, but I am feeling very depressed. I did not anticipate so much pain, and I am so scared of starting chemo now. I feel like I just want to run away and not deal with this. I just want someone to tell me this pain will ease up, I have 2 children 4 and 3 and I can not even take care of them.