Mar 19, 2005 - 6:37 pm
I am sorry that I haven't posted for awhile but things here have been busy with Dr. appointments. As I said a while ago I made my Dr. appointments to follow through with what I promised Bob that I would. It took me a while to get started and now that I have everything has snow balled. First after the test with the female Dr. 2 mammograms and ultra sounds. I have an appointment with an Oncoligist/Surgeon to find out what the mass in my left breast is for sure. That appointment is this Thursday. Second, I have been having pain in my right side for a few year now and Bob and I decided to get things checked out and Bob went first and the rest is history. I made the appointments to get to the root of the problem as I promised Bob I would. I had ultra sounds and CT scans done of my Abdomen and pelvis they all came back fine. I had an appointment with a GI DR. yesterday. It was an associate that works with Bob's Dr. Needless to say I was a wreck!!!! To put it mildly!!!!! After the exam and she found the spot I saw her face and I knew what she was going to say. Yes, I am having a colonascopy done the day after Easter. So no Easter Brunch for me. After she spoke with Bob's Dr. they both came in and said that they don't usually knock people out for the test but they were going to knock me out. I was so grateful that they were going to as I can on imagin what my state of mind is going to be in. As my blood pressure was very high when they checked it there. They were very nice to me. I apologized for my hysterics. They understood.
So now that I have bent your eye's. I need you guys to tell me that I will be able to get through this!!!! I am so afraid of what they might find. I know that is crazy. I shouldn't worry about it until I find out but my mind just won't shut off!!!!!! My anzioty level is through the roof and I just can't seem to calm down. Our world feel apart doing this test 1yr-3months ago. I remember that day like it was yesterday!!!!
I am trying to stay calm but it just isn't working and that isn't helping the pain in my side right now. So the next couple of weeks are going to be tough to put it mildly. I haven't said a word to Bob's family. I don't want to ruin there Easter. I just don't know how I am going to explain why I can't eat at Easter Brunch.
Sorry that I have gone on and on!!!!!! I am just at the end of my rope and I don't know how to hang on!!!!
Thank You for listening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't think I am going crazy yet?
Love to All!!!
Hugs and Prayers to everyone!!!!!