Jan 31, 2005 - 8:49 pm
Hi to you all.
I am back home now after a wonderful heartfelt weekend in Biloxi. As a fairly new person on this board (March of 2004)and the only one there that has active cancer, I wanted to share what it meant to me.
I am stage IV with mets to liver and lungs. I stopped chemo after 8 months and am now doing the juicing/vitamin/diet regime with the help of a Naturapathic Dr. I went off my regime some over the weekend but the benefits far out weighed that.
I had read the Lance book, "It's Not About The Bike", but had no idea what he meant about survivorship. I understand it more now after spending time with SpongeBob and Lisa Rose. It was amazing to be able to sit and talk with others about cancer, chemo, doctors, symptoms, families, friends, and all sorts of other stuff (yes we told a few dirty jokes too). It had been a long time since I have laughed as much as I did. It was absolutely the best medicine I could have "taken". I have not stopped smiling since I got there on Thursday. I found myself sitting and gambling and smiling the whole time. Icing on the cake was getting to talk to a few others (Kerry, Stacy, and Kanga had sent their phone numbers). I tear up just typing about it (blue eyed folks cry easily). I felt so many of you while down there and credit you all for my "luck" at the tables. The camraderie, fellowship, and love was overpowering. I will carry that wonder with me every day now.
I am still amazed at how comfortable and natural it was meeting folks for the very first time. I had no idea what to expect and was so excited yet apprehensive beforehand. But, it was all so free flowing and easy. I don't think I can really put it into the right words.
I am sharing all of this with you because we are going to have another one this fall (date TBD). We decided that since we were the semicolins, we should have semi-annual reunions. SEMI squared kind of a thing. Airfare and hotels are very reasonable (and accommodating) in Las Vegas, so we chose it.
My mantra for the weekend was one from our own Sweet Baby Girl, Andrea.... "This cancer may kill me, but not today". I lived that this weekend. I began the next phase of my life as a cancer survivor. I am not cancer free yet, but will fight like hell to get there. I intend on being at the 50th Colin Palooza in 25 years!!!!!
I hope to see many more of you at Colin Palooza II. And if you can't come, just send us your phone number and we will call you.
It was truly awesome and we want to share it with more of you the next time. I am going to contact my employer (AT&T) to help pay for long distance calls to whereever we need to make them.