Better update than earlier-Please read and pray!!!!

This is a better update. I'm sorry I was so vague earlier. Thinks have not really sank in yet.

Hi everyone, Got my biopsy report today. Cancer is back for a third time. I go to chemo doctor tomorrow and then Friday I have Hickman cath put back in to infuse 4 very strong chemos at once. Then they will TRY to remove the cancer. Doctor is not sure if he can. I asked if this was going to kill me and he said it could. I'm so scared. My husband and I have been talking of going to a major cancer center for a second opinion. I have had cancer of the rectum 3 times in 1 1/2 yrs. Doctor said very unusual. We have talked to our church about helping us with expenses in travelling for a second opinion. So far, I've talked to Dana Farber in Boston, MA. I talked to a place that will fly cancer patients for free, so I'm trying to get that arranged. I have to have medical records faxed, pathology films mailed and bring radiology reports with me. My husband has been laid off since October, so funds are lacking. I am praying, if it's God's will, that He will provide the funds. Please lift your prayers to Heaven for me and you may share this request with others. The more I have praying the better. I'm also very depressed and in quite a bit of pain because of the cancer recurrence, so also pray for my pain to at least ease some. Thanks to all of your for caring. I love you all. I pray that God will heal me, because I want to see my grandkids grow up, and my family saved. If He chooses to send me on to Heaven, I pray that the pain is minimal. I'm not scared of dying because I know I'll be in Heaven, pain free. I just don't want to feel pain now. I have a high pain tolerance, but know that I'm really going to be going through a lot. Again, sorry so long. I probably won't be on here much, so I thought I'd tell you all what is going on. Again, Thanks for your prayers and support. You'll never know how much I love and appreciate you all.
Love, Judy