I'm new at this chat/message thing. So,here goes.
My Wife, my one and only Love, of 20 years passed away December 28,2004. I was her Caregiver 24/7. I had to be with her no matter what. She was my life...my universe...my reason for being. She fought a long hard battle for over 18 months. She had 24 sessions of External Radiation, 2 sessions of Internal Radiation and 6 Chemo (Cisplatin) treatments. By the time she was correctly diagnosed, she had Stage 3 Cervical Cancer. It was not a tumor of sorts, but a mass involving the pelvic region, nerves & kidneys. Operating was not an option. She went from 130lbs to 78lbs the morning she passed away.
I miss her terribly. I cry and cry some more. I don't want to do anything, go anywhere or talk to anyone. I just want to be with her. The pain of losing her is excrutiating...blinding if you will. I'm not crazy...I have a broken heart.
We have a son and I must care for him now. I promised her I would.
I'm alone now and hurting....any response is welcome.
Joined: Jun 2003
Hi. I am very sorry for your loss. She was lucky to know such love in her short life. I am glad you have your son to keep you going. I really have nothing profound to say. All I can do is give you a cyber hug and hope that with time your pain becomes more bearable.
Joined: Jan 2004
Hello. I am so very, very sorry. I agree with SharonL that your wife was lucky to have your love and support. It's okay to miss her, okay to cry... you may always miss her and feel the ache of loneliness for her, but hopefully your pain will lessen with time. I still ache and miss my mother who passed away in 2000 from ovarian cancer. Even though she was 66, I still think she was too young.
I, too, am fighting the battle of cervical cancer, having been first diagnosed in June of 1999, having surg