Nov 11, 2004 - 11:00 am
I've tried to post a message here a couple of times, I'm new to this & the first ones didn't show up, so here goes another attempt.
My mother-in-law developed non-small cell adenocarcinoma 3 1/2 years ago. She was treated with a lobectomy, radiation, chemo, with good results even though it had spread to the lymph nodes. She found a full year of remission before the cancer returned in the other lung last year. Then, she was placed on an oral chemo pill which actually had worse side effects than the IV chemo therapy. It did a good job of stopping the cancer in her lungs, but the side effects were difficult--diarrhea, lethargy, that tin taste in her mouth, skin rashes & peeling, etc.
Just last week we found out the CA has mets to her brain. She is now undergoing full brain radiation due to the location and number of lesions involved.
I see her growing weaker daily, but am hopeful she will rebound soon. Anyone else out there that has survived this same type of circumstance? I think we're all too scared to ask how much time we're looking at. At this point she's been through so much, we just want some quality time with her. She is so confused and disoriented right now, not herself at all. The doc's seem to think that will improve with the radiation, but she has changed so much in the past few weeks, I just don't know.
I just worry about what is to come, where it will go next. We've been so hopeful, she's had such a time with this, but has remained positive through out. This time is different for her. She seems to want to keep fighting, but I sense a change. Nothing she has verbalized, but there is so much she doesn't care about anymore. I hope it is only this phase of her illness talking, not her spirit breaking. Time will tell.