Nov 01, 2004 - 5:06 pm
I find myself asking today,"God, how much more do we have to bear?" I know He says he won't put you through more than you can bear, but I find myself doubting. I'm in a really bad mood today. Very down. My husband went looking for work all day and could find nothing. West Virginia is at the bottom of the list as far as employment goes. He tried to sign up for unemployment and his former employer said he was temporary, so he couldn't get unemployment. He's saying now that if he doesn't get a job within a week, that he's going to go on the road driving a truck. He got his CDL's last December but wouldn't drive out of state because of my health. Now, I'm asking myself, who will take care of me when I get sick? Who will help me with my colostomy. He has always put it on because I tried once and must have cut it too little and my stoma started bleeding, so he's done it ever since. With all the problems I'm still having, I'm scared to death. I can't go on the road with him yet because I still have the cathther and I'm always having problems with it. What do I do??? I feel like just throwing up my hands and quitting. This is the most depressed I've been in a long time. Please, if you pray, say a few for me and my husband. His name is Danny and I love him so much and I feel so bad for him. Love ya guys and thanks for listening to me whine again.