Oct 07, 2004 - 8:34 pm
I am having a pity party and I probably shouldn't vent here. I know that there are many people who are worst off than I am, but I have been pretty down lately. I had surgery in 6/03 for stage 3 rectal cancer. 2 positive nodes. I had a temporary ileostomy which was reversed 8 weeks later. Since then I have never been able to get the bathroom thing to a point where I feel comfortable. I have lots of diarrhea and have tried everything. The surgeon has recommended a permanent colostomy and I was booked in March, but I couldn't go through with it. It is now affecting my quality of life. I have a supportive husband and three great kids. My husband thinks that I would have a better quality of life with a colostomy. I think if I wasn't a nurse that this decision would be easier to make. My tumor was very low and all my rectal tissue has been removed. My body cannot adjust to the change. Thanks to all who are listening to me complain.