Hey everyone. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this site to come too. You guys are heaven sent. Just wish it was for another reason.
My husband had his first colonoscopy today after surgery and chemo.
(Rectal cancer, rad/chemo, surgery (removal of tumor only), post op chemo.)
The doc came in after the colonoscopy and said everything looked good, but he sent my husband down stairs for a CT Scan and has him scheduled Wed for an ultrasound. I knew that these test were going to be necessary to check for any signs of the cancer returning, but we still can't help being scared.
We've tried all day to comfort each other, you know saying everything to try to help the other one stop worrying. Things like:
1. Trust God (which we would both be crazy now w/out our faith.)
2. He had clear margins after surgery in Feb.
3. He just got off of chemo three weeks ago (on four months), surely it can't grow back that fast.
and on and on.....
I think at this point my husband is almost more scared of a colostomy than he is the cancer. I just want him alive and healthy so we can enjoy each other and his retirement.
You just sometimes get tired of going to bed and getting up everyday thinking about cancer.
Anyway, if you guys have any positive words I can pass along to him, I would really appreciate it.
Keep us in your prayers and you are all in ours.