Jun 23, 2004 - 3:11 pm
I'm mostly a lurker on this board; however, I have posted a few times regarding my husband Jonathan. He was diagnosed with rectal cancer in January. According to PET scans, prior to surgery, a large tumor was found in his rectum, lymph nodes, and a 9 mm liver lesion. He went through chemo prior to surgery (5 treatments) which consisted of Oxiplatin, 5Fu and Lecovorin. He also had one treatment of Avastin. According to his CT scans after the treatments it appeared as if it had eradicated much of the disease, however, as many of you informed me, we wouldn't know until the pathology reports came back how successful the treatment really was. Prior to surgery, one of the surgeons commented that this was the best response to chemotherapy that he had seen in all his years of practice (30 years). The surgeon also stated that his liver was impeccable; no disease present. We were informed by the doctor that out of 41 lymph nodes removed he had 9 lymph nodes with very microscopic disease. The doctor indicated that the cancer was so microscopic that they had a hard time detecting it. Jonathan is know taking radiation and more chemo (Xeloda) and will end his treatments in 2 weeks. He will have a one month reprieve. He is then expected to go on six more months of treatment. His CEA when he was diagnosed was 130 and is now 1.8. I'm writing to tell our story and to also say that I'm frightened beyond belief. Jonathan is my whole world... he is 37 and I'm 34. We don't have children...we tried prior to his diagnosis but were unsuccessful. It has been a difficult year with the unsuccessful pregnancies and now this. I can't imagine my life without Jonathan. Can someone who has nine lymph nodes affected who had a small lesion on his liver that was eradicated with chemo (won't the liver lesion come back since it wasn't removed surgically?) Can he still have a long life? Is it possible that the cancer can be eradicated for good? I feel so foolish asking this question, no one really knows the answer to this. Only GOD knows the answer. I realize that no one is assured of tomorrow. I feel so lost. I'm shaking as I write this. I don't know where to turn. I thank god for all of you and I pray every night that a cure will one day be found.