May 20, 2004 - 7:48 pm
Hi all... I came to vent some fears of mine... So far, I have been only a caregiver to my hubby wh has stage 4 colon cancer. Befoer his diagnosis, I had sudden onset of panic attacks brought on initially from strange heart beats ... They did an ekg and other test and concluded it was esopagitis with anxiety. I have GERD (acid reflux).. So they did abdominal ultrasounds and endoscopy which showed nothing. I was on short term disability for a couple months till the panic subsided. 2 mo. later hubby was diagnosed... he had been complaining for quite a while of abdominal pain, gas bloating, etc. Evenbtually he had bouts of heartburn. In the last 2 weeks I have been consitpated and how now noticed bright red blood when i go to the bathroom and it is totally freaking me out! I figure it's just hemmroids, but after doing so much research here and online I know alot of people are misdiagnosed or think its nothing. I have my yearly ob/gyn visit next week and today after another bloody episode I finally made an appt. with the gastroenterologist. I am going to have it checked out but I am just kinda losing it. My hubby and I have had so many similar symptoms and with mine they only checked my upper GI so now i fear they should have checked my lower GI too. I try to tell myself it's just stress and all but I just worry anyway... It is hard for me to imagine what if I have it too. What are the odds. On the other hand I do have cancer in my family... Mom had kidney cancer, dad had prostate cancer, Great aunt had breast cancer... so I jst don't know what to think. Any advice? Prayers are always welcome too. :) I just had to vent cause keeping all this to myself the last 2 weeks has been quite a burden.... Thanks.