I had a ct scan last week and have to wait until next Thursday for the results. My oncologist is not here because he is such a big shot he travels all the time giving talks and stuff. So I have been pouting instead of visiting the board. And you have been planning a big trip in my absence. How dare you have fun while I am suffering?
We have all been down this road before waiting for the good news/bad news. I never minded so much when I was really sick but now that my last scan was clear it is very difficult to think about the possibility of a recurrence.
The only thing that is keeping me sane is the beautiful weather. I have been outside a lot lately. My sister has an old overgrown walled herb garden that had been neglected for years. Due to my illness and her own lack of interest it was untended until I felt well enough to clean it up last summer. I got a late start because my chemo ended in spring and it took a while to get some energy back. A few flowers were planted and I felt optimistic enough to put in some bulbs last fall. Big success. Tulips. Hyacinths. Lilies.
Ambitious plans are now afoot to revamp the entire space and I am hard at it. Don't ask me what is going to going to happen but even the heartbreak of a crop failure is preferable to being in the doctor's waiting room.
Aspaysia, growing pretty things