Im 14 yrs.old and i lost my mom to breast cancer when i was 4. my family ( my dad, brothers and sister ) doesnt talk about her and if they do its no more than a sentence. Im a very independent person and i guess thats how i have to be with one parent and siblings that are out of the house . but im writing this because i dont know why but lately ive been feeling so alone. im getting sick of being independant and i just want my mom i just want my shoulder to cry on or someone to tell my troubles to. my dads a workaholic and hes not very good at the whole dad thing. for my age i know its not easy for people to take me seriously but im reading the things written by people who have lost lovved ones to the same thing and i was just hoping some one could relate. i feel like ive run out of options i have no grandparents , they all died when i was 12. Ive missed my mom, she was the most beautiful person in the whole world, she was a tall gorgoeus model turned doctor, with the biggest smile, she loved to paint and travel the world. Im not a religious person at all and if there is a god hes been too busy for me for most of my life ( not trying to sound melodramatic ) im just worried because i dont like not knowing where my mom is. im tired of being confused and this seems like a good place to vent.