Jan 28, 2004 - 10:45 am
Female now 47. I was hit by a truck at 36 in hosp for 4 1/2 months. Got out and in 10 days back in another hosp for exploritory woke up to a radical hyst ovarian Cancer. Chemo for 13 months many obstacles in between. 5yrs after ovarian found lump in breast had mast stage three breast cancer given 40% to live 5 yrs. Chemo, radiation, Tramflap gone wrong that left me more of a freak than I was with only one breast. I lost my mother last summer it was my 5 yr for the breast cancer (she was my only support). I am tired of everyone telling me how strong I am I will beat this. I AM NOT GOING TO BEAT THIS, it is a matter of time before the cancer moves when or where no one can say but they do say,BUT IT WILL. I want to talk about living with the cancer I am not a survior I hate that word in connection with my cancer. I want to talk to others that are preparing for death but until death knocks try to carry on with some kind of life. I have accepted my fate but nobody else will talk to me about it or let me be scared about it. I desperatly need to talk without the ' you are so strong, you made it through all that...you will make it through this. I am not a religious person for you that are that is great it is not for me. My greatest supporter is gone.