Jan 09, 2004 - 11:13 am
Hello all. Last time I posted I had good news that after 3 treatments the cancer in Hubby's body was gone by 50%. That was right before Christmas and all was happy. He didn't do handsprings because he is not using the positive attitude he should. ANYway yesterday we got some news that he has congestive heart failure. Caused by heart damage from high blood pressure and he has fluid on the lungs which is causing his already enlarged heart to enlarge even more. Bless his heart he doesn't have a clue how bad all of this can be. He just gets pissed off because he can't paint the bathroom or work on his race cars or put in the 60+ hours a week he was used to. I have looked everywhere for a positive attitude pill but can't find one for him. I am tired and can't keep this happy face much longer. I did lose it the other day with him and told him to stop whinning about being sick at his stomach and take the medicine that the Dr. prescribed and make this all work. It is in his hands and the only thing he can think of is that all would be well if he could just take less Xeloda and get back to work.. Thanks for letting me go on and on. I sound negative because that is all I am hearing at home. I know I need (and him too) to keep positive. I line up the positive things in front of his nose and he just nods and thats it. He doesn't HAVE to work,Insurance so far is paying almost all of the OUTRAGOUS bills, He has a healthy 8 year old daughter, His cancer is 50% gone with only 3 treatments, He got help with the heart problem before a heart attack... And on and On. Thank you again. May God Bless all of you and this outlet for me to look like a complete idiot.