Oct 12, 2003 - 4:58 am
I was attending college last year, when I found out my grandfather had cancer. It was very scary and I became really depressed. I wanted to come home but my parents thought that I should wait until I had a break from school. I didn't agree but they refused to let me come home. He died within a 2 weeks of finding out he had cancer. I was scheduled to come home the following week. I don't know how to deal. This has been about 9 months now. I am better than before but I still can't let it go. I used to cry everytime I saw a movie that had someone sick. Around the time my grandfather was sick my pet rat had a lump he had already had cancer and I love him but I almost completely put me over the edge. I couldn't lose both of them at the same time. He is fine it was just and abcess. I still wonder if I would have felt better if I got to see him before he died. My mother feels it wouldn't have been better because he wasn't concious most of the time the other times he couldn't remember most of my family. I still don't know what to do. I think it helps just to let it all out.