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POST-TREATMENT AND NERVOUS
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Jul 25, 2003 - 10:01 am
I was diagnosed with stage4A Hodgkins last September when I was three months pregnant. I went through six months of ABVD chemo for the remainder of my pregnancy and finally had a beautiful bouncing baby girl in February. I had six weeks off and finished with two more months of treatment and finally finished in May. My CAT and PET scans were all clear right after baby was born. They were all clear mid-June. I am thrilled, but a fear of it returning is consuming me. I am overly concerned about any pain or feeling I feel and I hate to call my doctor for everything. I want to live everyday enjoying my family and life. I keep busy, I have four children now and they are the joy of my life. I have a supportive husband. Does it get easier with every negative scan? or is it always going to be like this? Any suggestions out there?? |
Joined: Dec 2000
Wow, cut yourself some slack for being human! You have been through a lot and not so very long ago. Yes, I think it gets easier with the more time between you and the cancer...you begin to believe it more and more that you are OK. But even so, you will probably always get at least a little bit nervous for every checkup scan. Who wouldn't? It's no fun to be poked and scanned, and you know better than anyone that you don't want to ever go through those treatments again. But I try to look at those appointments from a different perpective these days (I say TRY because I'm guilty of getting nervous sometimes about them too - but I calm myself with this) and that is that if there is something to detect we will catch it early and I will have all the options out there in front of me. They are coming up with new stuff all the time that is more humane and better treatment. I did it once, and I could do it again if I HAVE to. There are worse things than staying on top of and taking good care of your health, right?
Joined: Jul 2003
Dear Jenny,
I think the Alcoholics Anonymous prayer is something like: Lord, giv