May 09, 2003 - 2:41 am
Can anyone relate to this message? I am 23 years old and just finished my 12 ABVD treatments and will start radiation. I have an excellent job and make good money. I still finished college even though I have this crappy disease and worked full time while going through treatment. We all know there is a lot of pain and stress while undergoing treatment.....but if I have to hear "God has blessed you" or "..I know this one guy who had cancer..." or "..is it all over now?..." I will go off! BACK OFF!!!!! Sometimes trying to help makes things worse. This message is for all parents, friends, spouses, and girlfriends/boyfriends. When the patient shuts everyone out (which I am doing) it is for his/her own good. They will come back over time. Realize that they have been through a very rough time and let them deal with it. Obviously I am bitter and angry about HD...but who cares! i am allowed. I am sure I'll lose this attitude in time but not now. I definitely don't want to start a theological argument but I was not religious before HD, and I really could care less about "God" now. I mean, if he is so caring and benovolent then how do you explain all of us suffering through cancer? In conclusion, let's not perpetuate a society of wimps and learn that anger is an acceptable feeling that does not always have to be looked down upon and invoke the response of "be positive". The next person who trivializes my feelings is going to get my foot up their ass! Somebody has to feel the way I do!