May 01, 2003 - 10:10 pm
My father was diagnoise with non-small cell lung cancer last year at the end of August and I have been taking care of him since then. The cancer started on his upper spine and around his wind pipe and on the outside of lung. But now it has spread to his liver, leg bone and lower spine that we know of and a little on his shoulder. At first it was not hard taking care of him because all I had to do was be there when he went to his appointments a 100 miles from where we live and give him support. However now he is starting to loose his mind and sometimes does not know who I am or where he is. We have started to have someone here at all times to keep him out of hurting himself or leaving the place in the middle of the night. Trust me we caught him unlocking one of ours doors and claming he needed to get home when he was home. It is starting to take its effect on me. I lost my mind yesterday at work and had to take a day away from him and my job so I could gather my thoughts and strentgh. Mainly sleeping at someone else house so I could catch up on the sleep I have lost from the nights before when taking care of him. My mom has been trying to help, but dad wants me to help him and not mom most of the time. He has even started calling my cell phone and leaving voice mails just because he thought I should be home when I have not got off work or was held later there. If anyone who has any suggestions for me on how to cope with this or how to stay calm around him or to even relax, please tell me. I am up to any suggestions.