Apr 30, 2003 - 2:25 am
I don't even know where to start.... I lost my Dad April 7th to complications of stage IV lung cancer. He was 57 and had been diagnosed in mid-February. He never really had a chance to fight the cancer, he was too busy fighting other lung infections. I spent lots of time with him while he was ill. He totally expected to be able to fight this horrible disease and win but he never had a chance to fight.
I have spent the last few weeks since his death caring for everyone(that used to be Dad's job). My Mother seems to be doing a little better. My husband and four-year-old are dealing well also. I seem to be the one not coping. Most of the time I feel numb. I have only cried a few times(one of which was at the funeral). It just doesn't seem real to me.
How do I get through this? I know he's gone. I was at the hospital, funeral and burial. How do you grieve if your heart won't accept the reality?