Apr 05, 2003 - 9:58 am
Will start chemotherapy on April 22nd for Sarcoma. Finished 7week course of radiation about two weeks ago. Feeling guilty for my vain thoughts re. loosing my hair. I am actually more terrified of that than the treatment. I have prepared for it right down to getting my hair cut QUITE short on the 17th but still am afraid. I feel like I am being so petty. I am sure as chemotherapy progresses my priorites will change but for now I can't let go of the hair loss issue and also the fact that I have been told I will go through early menopause. Are these VAIN feelings normal or am I altogether to preoccupied with my looks? I REALLY HATE FEELING THIS WAY AS I THOUGHT I HAD IT ALL TOGETHER BUT AS I GET CLOSER TO TREATMENT TIME MY FEELINGS GET WORSE.