Mar 12, 2003 - 10:04 am
hi, i'm mackbnme2.i was diagnosed in october with follicular thyroid cancer.i have now had 2 surgeries and one dose of radiation.i am 27 with 3 very young kids.to tell you the truth i had no idea what the thyroid really did until all this started happening.i guess i'm wondering if the side effects i seem to be having will ever dissapate? i am tired but not as much as before but my hair feels brittle,my skin dry,the hot and cold feelings and i've gained 30 lbs and i'm having crying jags.i guess i should have expected they were coming because through all the months of waiting to hear whats wrong and surgeries, i was the one saying"you know its the most curable and it will all be behind me after the surgery" HA! now i hate it when people tell me, "you know if your going to get cancer its the best kind to have" thats not how i'm feeling right now.yes i feel grateful to be alive and thank god everyday it is me and not my kids but i suddenly feel "used up" i guess its all sinking in now.i may be sounding vain but my scar on my neck is really bothering me.its soo ugly,from ear to ear, and unfortunately i have very sensitive skin that scars easily so my staple marks from both surgeries are very bold.the worst for me is the extra weight.i've never been thin but i'm soo miserable.nothing fits anymore and i cant even look in the mirror.i lock the door when i bathe so my husband wont see me, which you can imagine means there is no more intimate time!he is soo supportive but i just dont like me right now.i guess i'm wondering if i just need my synthroid changed or i read in another chatroom that some others were adding cytomel to their synthroid to control their side effects.does anyone have a great doctor that has mentioned anything about how to control these side effects? sorry about the self pity party i seem to be throwing, i'm still feeling kind of new to all this. thx for the ear!