Please accept my humble and deepest apology for my latest episode of acting so chidish. I am feeling so bad about it all that I have been beating myself up inside. I really don't know why I have been acting this way and although I asked the Lord to forgive me; it seems that I can't forgive myself. I should acknowledge that I have been wrong to a lot of people on this site and believe me I feel very bad about it. I can't change what I did yesterday and before that and so on.
All I can do is not allow it to happen with each new day. Tomorrow is not promised and yesterday is gone. I am so sorry that I have been venting my frustrations to a lot of people. I have been really ill, and I guess I allowed it to controll my behavior. So if I made a rude or caustic remark to any one of you I ask for you to please forgive me and don't give up on me. I don't know of any other way I can say this aside from this humble apology. I promise that I won't do it again guys, so please accept this apology. All I have done lately is alienate myself and sounded like sour grapes. I could go on and on with this, but I won't. Some of you know that I have been having a rough time both on the computer and with this illness. I am not the only one that has been having a rough time. Anyone dealing with this disease has, and I am including care takers as well.
Can I expect you to forgive me ? With the unpredictable way I have been acting I would say NO! All I can do is pour my heart out to you and allow the Lord to do the rest. I get so weary that I don't know where to go with it all. One thing is for certain!!! I do not need to attack the very people who do understand what I am going through..... Please give me another chance ? I am so very sorry to all of you, and I have been praying for others so much that I forgot myself in the process. This is coming from the bottem of my heart and really is hard. Instead of dealing with physical pain like I should be I have been behaving like a tyrant... I guess I should just shutup now and live it. Be a positive example as opposed to the way I have been acting...Once again I am sorry and please forgive me. May you all Be Blessed in Jesus Name. I do love you and I am sorry.
Gods Love Peace & Joy